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A quick note about my family.

 

Just thought I’d upload a pic of my hair after the hairdresser RUINED it!

I’m really upset as I’d got it so HEALTHY and now its not!

 

So I now have to grow it out again to get that lovely healthy SPRING it had!

I’m very annoyed – but I was STUPID to trust anyone!

 

Everyone seems to know who I am before I meet them, and then the act in a strange adverse way and say hints about me – which brings me to the point of this little bit of writing.

 

As I just said, people seem to recognise me and know about me – before I’ve actually met them now!

I appear to be FAMOUS! Strangely!

And I can tell you its not a good thing!

Not always.

 

I have often written all about my family haven’t I?

I have told the world about how I do not speak to my family, we have fallen out BIGTIME!

They refuse and have flatly refused to assist me in anyway.

 

They refused to support my education how they were supposed to.

I should have had an OXFORD education.

I am an intelligent woman and I deserved a good strong education and I wanted it!

I’m really heartbroken that I didn’t get to study properly and I wanted a complete education.

I should have gone to Oxford, but my parents wouldn’t pay for the 4 years of education.  I know this.

That’s why I ran away!

 

I finally completed a crap degree that I didn’t get on with.

The tutors had it in for me – I ended up not going and I didn’t enjoy it at all.

I almost failed and I feel really upset about this and now I can’t get on in life because of it, although I am now trying to educate myself from scratch in the arts, literature, film and even science!

I would have liked to do an Ma and I thought about taking an MA at The university of Westminster in Photography, as I think it would have suited me well – I looked at the course and considering that I am a photographer – it seemed up my street!

 

So the last time I spoke to my Mother I mentioned it, that I thought it would be good for me to go back to college and do an Ma so that I could get a career, get work, maybe set myself up as a Photographer, considering I do love Photography, I enjoy digital photography and I reckon I’m pretty good!  I set up and direct all my own pics aswell as take pics too!

 

But my Mum PUT THE PHONE DOWN ON ME when I mentioned a bit of assistance – I can’t afford to pay for the whole thing myself and live at the same time!

So thats what I mean about MY EVIL family.

 

They don’t care that I have to sell my body, they’d rather me be dead than help me.

Its been like this for around 10 years.

They kicked me out of home during my degree, which is one reason I ended up doing so badly.

 

For FUCKS SAKE – they couldn’t even find it in their hearts to buy me a 30th birthday present.

 

How did that make me feel?

Just think about that!

 

So The point of this is that people are mentioning 4 by 4 cars when they meet me.

Why?

 

Coz as far as I know my father has got a 4 by 4 car!

OK!

As far as I know!

They are quite expensive cars I imagine!

Yes!

 

But they couldn’t even get their first daughter a birthday pressie!

Let alone support my bloody education.

 

Ok!

 

So that’s what I am saying!

 

I’m alone, no-one to help me – although they go on holiday and have a 4by 4.

 

As far as I know my Dad doesn’t earn a fortune, they are certainly not rich!

He’s always worked in the same factory on nightshifts – NICE ey?

So please leave my family alone.

I am VERY HURT and UPSET and I cannot believe what has happened and that I didn’t get the education I wanted and they give me SWEET F.A!

SWEET F.A!

 

So whether they have a 4 by 4 car or not - they FLATLY REFUSE TO GIVE ME A SINGLE PENNY!

 

Their own daughter!

 

Its very, very sad and I cannot believe them!

 

If I was DYING in the GUTTER – I don’t think they’d call an ambulance.

 

Ok.

 

So it makes no difference that they have a fuckin 4 by 4.

 

So please if you meet me – don’t mention that!

If they were millionaires I still don’t think they’d give me anything, coz they.

 

LIKE THE REST OF THE POPULATION  ARE

FUCKIN CRUEL.

They always wanted to see me fail and go down.

They never wanted me to do well.

They wanted to watch me fall into the gutter.

I can now see how they wanted to watch me fail – they didn’t LOVE me, they didn’t want me to succeed in anything I did. They have never been to any event that I have achieved, exhibition, award ceremony, NOTHING.

They didn’t want me to achieve a thing!

And  although they do, at least I think they do have a 4 by 4 car – they will not give me a penny to help me in life! I’m ALONE and have been so estranged for 8 years now!

 

So they have achieved their aims.

 

Ok.

 

KEZ

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Its hurts and I cannot believe it either!

So please don’t RUB it in when you meet me – coz its happening lots that people go on about 4 by 4 cars when they meet me?

DROP it OK!

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Kez

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OH, AND REMEMBER I HAVE ACTUALLY HAD A REAL HEART ATTACK.  SO PLEASE TRY TO BE A BIT KIND.

 

OH YEARH – BASICALLY PEOPLE SHOULDN’T EVEN KNOW THAT MY DAD HAS A 4 BY 4 IN THE FIRST PLACE?

 

WHO HAS STARTED THIS RUMOR?

 

WHY ARE PEOPLE GOING ON ABOUT 4 BY 4 CARS WHEN THEY MEET ME – I’M NOT IMAGINING THIS – ITS HAPPENED QUITE A FEW TIMES!

 

LOOK – ME & MY FAMILY ARE ESTRANGED.

YES I KNOW ITS SAD!

BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY ITS THEIR CHOICE NOT TO HELP ME.

PLEASE  - DO TRY TO KEEP MY  FAMILY OUT OF THIS.

I LOVE MY FAMILY STILL – ALTHOUGH WE HAVE BIG DIFFERENCES.

I’D HATE ANYTHING TO HAPPEN TO THEM AS A RESULT OF  ME BLABBING MY MOUTH OFF OK.

 

LETS JUST KEEP MY FAMILY OUT OF THIS!

 

I KNOW THEY’VE GIVEN ME NOTHING – BUT AT THE SAME TIME I OBVIOUSLY DO NOT WANT ANYTHING BAD TO HAPPEN TO THEM – THEY’RE MY FAMILY I DO IN MY HEART STILL FUCKIN WELL LOVE THEM.

 

OK.

 

GOOD – I NEEDED TO GET THIS ONE STRAIGHT!

 

Money or no money  - I'd hate them to get hurt because of me.

so  - no more 4 by 4 sly comments.

Thanks

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KEZ

 

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